Making a new Tumblr account. I need to keep this more private. If you want the URL, you can ask me for it. Anons won’t get the link.
This will be done within the week.
It’s 3:34AM, and I’ve had the shittiest day
- I drove to my ex boyfriends house an hour ago, because he won’t talk to me, so I was like screw it. If I come to his house and tap on his window, he’ll be forced to talk to me. It kinda backfired when he kept saying “get out of here, or I’m calling the police.” It was so worth it though. I haven’t heard his voice in four months. Such a calming voice.
- On the way back, he talked to me on the phone. Just about some of the stuff going on with us. It was a pretty good talk, I think we’re off to a good start…? Maybe.
- I haven’t seen him in 5 months, again, SO good to finally see him. Still as handsome as ever.
- I took my parents car, and I was so sure that I’d get caught. I literally never prayed so much in my life as I did in that car on the way there. Sobbing and praying is what I did, basically… which basically confirms for me that there is a God, because there’s NO way I could’ve gotten away with this without him.
- My best friend told me that I was uglier than this other girl, so naturally I’m never speaking to him for the rest of my life
- My fwb told me to go fuck myself (not literally, but basically he did say that). He said he doesn’t care about anything I have to say or my issues or whatever. I don’t want to go so extreme as to block him on everything, but I don’t know. I think I’m just done with him for the rest of my life, because if I get my ex boyfriend back, I will treat him like a king, and that means no talking to fwb ever again
- Lost a best friend tonight (repeat). I don’t care though—now I understand why my best friend broke up with him. He’d be a terrible boyfriend
